cupid is stupid.
too anxious to sleep. aside all of my anxiety, this evening was pretty relaxing. i didn’t have to rush back to the city just to see my parents. i took it easy. i lied in bed, watched tv, napped for 2 hours, cleaned my bathroom, folded laundry, tried on my dresses, and practiced my platform.
i’m surprised i didn’t document my spring break. i spent the last day with chops’ family. we went to celebration station, go karted, mini golfed, had pizza, went bowling, and that was it. it was all fun though! i haven’t seen him in two weeks, but i’ll be seeing him in a little more than 12 hours for pageant rehearsal, where we will be arm-in-arm. then again, saturday night, in front of everyone. too bad we’re just friends.
speaking of being just friends, i would like to be just that with tulsa. i didn’t realize he liked me until two people pointed it out. it makes sense now. i just don’t see him in that way though. i feel like i dodged a huge bullet from him earlier this evening. he said something along the lines of “it’s apparently uneventful after pageants, how about we go out for dinner?” uhh………….. it was a thoughtful, sweet gesture, but i really had to dodge cupid’s arrow. i surely am not interested in him, therefore i should be able to say no and not feel guilty, right? right. and that’s what i did.
bed time.
